Title: Having Feminist Ideal and being a Lady is fucking confusing but Fuck it we can do it!
Hey World,
I know its been a while since you heard from me but don't fear I am still a broke girl with lots of opinions. Just think of it like I took a summer hiatus...Anyhow as you may or may not know I have now moved to Germany to be with my lover. I always said I wanted to live in Europe and here I am living that life ...I feel so blessed...However, there's still shit that goes down in life that just pisses a broke girl of like having to ask your man for money so you can buy a snack but he says no because its his agenda to have you skinny so you starve a skinny girl's death!...that one is personal lol. Life has its hurdles that's for sure so that's why it is soo important to be goal oriented atleast I feel that way. You have to think of the big picture because the little picture sometimes sucks to much. I mean I am being negative.. life is okay I got a job no its not the BEST job in the world but I have to say its something I enjoy doing, I am finally living with my lover and I am soooo happy for that. Life has a way of throwing shit at you as if to see how much shit you can really take so when you get a moment of achievement basks in all of its glory...I say fuck humility...Basks in it cuz we just don't know how long it will last for.
One of the new things I am adjusting to is living somewhere where I am the lady of the house. And the feminist in me is mad and ashamed. You go though university at least I did thinking I will be the change I hate being expected to cook and clean but there I go wanting to marry someone from that exact culture. And it is as if I should be ashamed that I dont iron my boyfriend's shirt every time. And the idiot in me, feels ashamed for it..
Man that is nothing to be ashamed about. Ladies you are the lady of the house because you have a vagina and that is all that should be expected of you. Yes, to have a vagina that's why society says your a lady so you conform and then you say that's mutha fuckin it! ..But there is this mind fuckin' dilemma you wanna be a good partner.
You should want to be a good partner and make the other person happy and of-course make yourself happy..But lets face it, if you want to have a successful and happy relationship you can't be selfish. You know I am going to sound real bad when I say this but for most of my life I have been a proud selfish person. I saw no fault in it I mean in some ways I still don't see fault in it... Let's keep it real this is my blog and I share my opinions. When I was in the 7th grade my teacher said one sentence to me that I never forgot..oh yes I forgot everything else I learnt but this one thing he said I will never forget.
He said "If you want to be successful in life you must think of yourself first". I often get mad at myself if I do something that is not alright with me. You have to love yourself first in order to love other people "Oprah said that line". Being selfish has served me well for most of my life, it has allowed me to cut out the bad in life with ease it has allowed me to treat myself well, it has allowed me to have confidence in my own thoughts and opinions and it has allowed me to say fuck the world anytime they tried to dictate what I could and could not do. And ain't NOONE taking that selfish behavior away from me!
But filling the role of a healthy partner in a successful relationship has also taught me a thing or two about selflessness. Oh yes, selflessness. Now old broke girl would of said fuck that bullshit but hey you grow in different ways. Sometimes you just gotta give in and compromise. I think this is something I still struggle with which sometimes makes me a difficult partner. As a person with some feminist ideals this also causes some confusion and self conflict. Why the hell should I feel ashamed that I am not good at fullfilling my specific gender role expectation? I should feel so ashamed that I am not the best cook and I think ironing clothes are for dummies when the dryer works just fine. I would understand if you said I was a lazy person but no it's not that I am a person it's even worse I am a lazy woman. UGH how dare you be a woman who can't cook only men are allowed those privileges of life. You should basically go somewhere and drown yourself if you are a woman who doesn't like to cook, clean, do laundry and iron shit..I just want to say fuck I am a full woman, I have the right amount of chromozones and the vagina to prove it!
But again, women even if you are like me and you have this personal battle within yourself. Don't be a fuckin' mess. Be your best...try your best to be a good partner. Be a team... fuck being a gendered woman machine. But work for your team. That sometimes means you gotta cook, clean and do laundry, have pride in knowing your a good teammate. Anytime you feel like your being a good servant say Fuck U to your partner!
Hey World,
I know its been a while since you heard from me but don't fear I am still a broke girl with lots of opinions. Just think of it like I took a summer hiatus...Anyhow as you may or may not know I have now moved to Germany to be with my lover. I always said I wanted to live in Europe and here I am living that life ...I feel so blessed...However, there's still shit that goes down in life that just pisses a broke girl of like having to ask your man for money so you can buy a snack but he says no because its his agenda to have you skinny so you starve a skinny girl's death!...that one is personal lol. Life has its hurdles that's for sure so that's why it is soo important to be goal oriented atleast I feel that way. You have to think of the big picture because the little picture sometimes sucks to much. I mean I am being negative.. life is okay I got a job no its not the BEST job in the world but I have to say its something I enjoy doing, I am finally living with my lover and I am soooo happy for that. Life has a way of throwing shit at you as if to see how much shit you can really take so when you get a moment of achievement basks in all of its glory...I say fuck humility...Basks in it cuz we just don't know how long it will last for.
One of the new things I am adjusting to is living somewhere where I am the lady of the house. And the feminist in me is mad and ashamed. You go though university at least I did thinking I will be the change I hate being expected to cook and clean but there I go wanting to marry someone from that exact culture. And it is as if I should be ashamed that I dont iron my boyfriend's shirt every time. And the idiot in me, feels ashamed for it..
Man that is nothing to be ashamed about. Ladies you are the lady of the house because you have a vagina and that is all that should be expected of you. Yes, to have a vagina that's why society says your a lady so you conform and then you say that's mutha fuckin it! ..But there is this mind fuckin' dilemma you wanna be a good partner.
You should want to be a good partner and make the other person happy and of-course make yourself happy..But lets face it, if you want to have a successful and happy relationship you can't be selfish. You know I am going to sound real bad when I say this but for most of my life I have been a proud selfish person. I saw no fault in it I mean in some ways I still don't see fault in it... Let's keep it real this is my blog and I share my opinions. When I was in the 7th grade my teacher said one sentence to me that I never forgot..oh yes I forgot everything else I learnt but this one thing he said I will never forget.
He said "If you want to be successful in life you must think of yourself first". I often get mad at myself if I do something that is not alright with me. You have to love yourself first in order to love other people "Oprah said that line". Being selfish has served me well for most of my life, it has allowed me to cut out the bad in life with ease it has allowed me to treat myself well, it has allowed me to have confidence in my own thoughts and opinions and it has allowed me to say fuck the world anytime they tried to dictate what I could and could not do. And ain't NOONE taking that selfish behavior away from me!
But filling the role of a healthy partner in a successful relationship has also taught me a thing or two about selflessness. Oh yes, selflessness. Now old broke girl would of said fuck that bullshit but hey you grow in different ways. Sometimes you just gotta give in and compromise. I think this is something I still struggle with which sometimes makes me a difficult partner. As a person with some feminist ideals this also causes some confusion and self conflict. Why the hell should I feel ashamed that I am not good at fullfilling my specific gender role expectation? I should feel so ashamed that I am not the best cook and I think ironing clothes are for dummies when the dryer works just fine. I would understand if you said I was a lazy person but no it's not that I am a person it's even worse I am a lazy woman. UGH how dare you be a woman who can't cook only men are allowed those privileges of life. You should basically go somewhere and drown yourself if you are a woman who doesn't like to cook, clean, do laundry and iron shit..I just want to say fuck I am a full woman, I have the right amount of chromozones and the vagina to prove it!
But again, women even if you are like me and you have this personal battle within yourself. Don't be a fuckin' mess. Be your best...try your best to be a good partner. Be a team... fuck being a gendered woman machine. But work for your team. That sometimes means you gotta cook, clean and do laundry, have pride in knowing your a good teammate. Anytime you feel like your being a good servant say Fuck U to your partner!
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